You will see me as H.E. Olsen , holsen68, and holsen, but you can call me Heather. I have always been creative, always loving to draw and paint. I found in my teens that I enjoyed writing poems and short stories, but never tried to go anywhere with it. I had no clue what I wanted to do after graduation.
Making this part of my life short, I will briefly say, “That about four years after graduation I married and had kids. The beginning of my marriage was not easy. We both struggled.”
The beginning of our marriage and becoming a new mom, had negative forces that brought me to depression, even suicidal depression. I started feeling unworthy, ashamed, and scared. These emotions caused me to lose self-worth, my identity, and love for life. I became lost in a sea of black, not knowing how to find a way out.
One day, I was at my lowest, I couldn’t get any lower. I wanted life to end. This scared me so I started praying. As I was praying the Love I held for my God, my husband, and my children created a sliver of light to keep me moving. Day by day, this love continued to grow.
As the love in me kept growing my emotions did a funny thing. They started flying off the wall. There was so much inside of me that wanted to escape. Sitting in our trailer, I started typing them down on my laptop. Typing my emotions, putting them out there, became very healing. Then I started to study about love vs. hate, adding this to my typed emotions. My first book, ‘Finding True Love’, was created. It is a little book about finding love within. Explaining that loves’ perfection overcomes all our imperfections. (It has not been published yet, still in the process of finding a publisher. With no funds and limited internet access, this has been hard to do.) This book was very healing for me. I would love it to be healing to others.
With my first book I realized I love to write. I love studying literary works, growing in knowledge of writing. I have found my calling, as well as myself. (Besides writing, I want to take some courses to become a counselor, maybe later on looking into psychology.)
I have to admit that I was, and still a little am, fearful to put myself ‘out there’ like this. My fear is, “What if I don’t make it.” Whether if I make it or not, I have learned and grown into a strong, loving, and mostly fearless individual. With this I have won.
I still am plugging away at typing. I have learned that good authors are not afraid to tell all, or get close to their audience. Let’s face it, without you to support us, we wouldn’t be able to achieve our publishing goals.
Now that I am done with my first book I am working on some short stories and poems, plus a second book, ‘satan, Knowing and Defeating the Enemy.’ We all fight with our own demons, but I want to get into who satan was and who he is now. Providing knowledge in how he works, because in knowing this we will have the knowledge to defeat him. (The desire to write this book comes from fighting my darkness.)
More than anything I want Gods will. I want to be a light to others who are struggling like I did, helping them to find their own light. Creating a shinning ripple that will expand, birthing more ripples. I want to bring more positivity to a negative world, encouraging others to see good, be loving, and find hope. (No matter what people believe, I don’t push my beliefs on others.)
So, this is who I am and where I’m at in life. I would love to connect with you, and you with me. I encourage you to share my story and pass me along. I would love to see you on my Facebook page (I have a link at the bottom you can hit like to join me there). I would also love to hear comments, advice, or your own story also. I would also love it if you wanted to follow me on WordPress.
I am new at this blogging thing, just wanted to warn you. I am still trying to figure it all out. Eventually I will become a pro, hopefully. Those of you who want to follow my progress I hope you will enjoy my posts.
Looking forward to our connection, Heather